Treated as Though I Died

When I was arrested and put in wshington county I was Forgotten by my sisters.I felt all alone
and I was very angry.I felt as though I was abandoned all my property was being Sold or taken.I
TRIED HARD to explain to LISA and JULIE my situation and my NEEDS but it seemed to fall on DEAF EARS
they would not BAIL me out and to tell the truth I was so MESSED UP Iactually thought of taking off.FLEEING.they did not knoe this.It came down to MONEY.I was very HURT even the public defender forgot about me and had thought i was Bailed out weeks before.Public defenders really could care less for whom they represent,or at least mine didnt.Again its all about MONEY,If you have it you HIRE an attorney IF YOU DONT YOU ARE TREATED AS THOUGH YOU ARE A LOWER FORM OF LIFE.The FAMILY should be able to HIRE an ATTORNEY out of LOVE money SHOULD BE THE LAST THING ON THEIR MINDS!EXAMPLE:JOHN STRUPP DID NOT GO TO PRISON BECAUSE IT WAS HIS 4TH.HE HAD A JOB, HE WORKED FOR HIS FAMILY, HE HIRED A REAL ATTORNEY,HE RECIEVED 7 MONTHS HUBER AND SPENT HIS TIME IN COUNTY.I WAS SENT TO STATE PRISON,HE GOT OUT FEELING GOOD ABOUT HIMSELF…..4 MONTHS LATER HE DRANK DROVE AND GOT HIS 5th O.W.I. TWO WEEKS LATER HIS 6th,hired an attorney RECIEVED HUBER 7 MONTHS COUNTY,NEVER SAW PRISON.I WAS STILL IN!!!!!!!GOT OUT RELAPSED AGAIN
and NOW HE WENT TO TREATMENT.NO PRISON…GET IT!? M O N E Y ,Meanwhile MY THINGS WERE BEING PUT IN GARAGE SALES and to this day ONE YEAR AFTER RELEASE I DONT HAVE MY PROPERTY AND THE THINGS I DO HAVE,I AM REMINDED BY THE RUMMAGE PRICE TAGS ON MY THINGS, 25 CENTS,50 CENTS and $1.00……….IT HURTS TO SEE AND I GUESS MY SENTIMENTAL FEELINGS ARE NOT THOUGHT ABOUT because their MY FEELINGS and NOT THEIRS.

LOCKED OUT-LOOKING IN

I Looked into the window and I was
completely Taken a Back.I could not Believe what I saw or Should I say Didnt see.The Family room
seen through the porch window was Ransacked,Items Broken thrown,tossed,crumbled.I phoned
Lisa…… (WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING TO ME?) I Was in SHOCK! She answered …(What are you Talking about?) Everything is missing and it looks like a Tornado
Hit!!! She said she would be Right over.According to Her she had no idea…When She arrived at the house she opened the Door for which I had no Key for and We walked around in Disbelief:'(She called her Husband and Asked him.He had Allowed the EVICTION
to happen and supposedly LISA was NOT TOLD.It Cost Rick Beder
$1640 to EVICT MY THINGS TO A STORAGE SHED, HE PHONED IT IN
AND WAS NOT THEIR WHILE (EAGLE
MOVING) AND EIGHT MOVING MONKEYS RAPED MY HOUSE! Question: Why was I not Informed?
Why was I not met with at the House by RICK B. Two days Prior?
WHY WAS RICK BEDER NOT THERE?
I Believe he had Been in the House and Took Items BEFORE the
MOVING MONKEY’S had Their Little
Hands on my Things……At this Point I began THROWING UP.

LOCKED OUT

When the time of the EVICTION got closer I prepared and stored my belongings in the back Bedroom per Lisa’s KIND SUGGESTION (Ya Right) thinking that it would be Safe UNTILL I found a place for MY STUFF.I on the other hand Had nowhere to Park My Butt Either BUT at least my things were safe, (foolin myself).I Watched as the Time of EVICTION got Closer.One day a couple of Weeks before the OFFICIAL EVICTION was to take place I arrived to my Family Home
and proceeded to put my Key in the Lock,To my Surprize the key did not work,RICK BEDER CHANGED THE LOCKS but my things were still in the House safe
or so I thought.I went to live with my Friend Sheila Ish and actually I
lived at Many Locations,MAYVILLE with Sharon Jackson,RICHFIELD with Rick Goetz,SLINGER with Kathy Tucker and Frog,and My Car.
PROBLEM: I was Drinking and I drove from place to place because I did not want to Wear Out My Welcome so every couple of Days I moved on.I knew it was a matter of time before Something would Happen.When I was staying with Sheila I made plans to get some of my things out of my House with RICK BEDER ……BEFORE The Date of the Official EVICTION.I wanted to retrieve things that I needed to SELL TO SURVIVE.It was a MONDAY
and I went to the House.Rick Beder Was NOT there as I expected.I Phoned him to Ask When He would Arrive,He said he Could NOT MAKE IT THAT DAY! How about in a couple of Days or so….I Agreed And I left.I returned again to see the Property on Wednesday and Noticed a Mess of Broken Blue Spruce Branches all Over the Driveway,Something Strange had taken Place!? I Then Drove Up the Driveway to get a Closer look.O MY GOD NO!

The EVICTION

I Arrived Home One Day and To My Surprize there was a NOTICE OF EVICTION on my Front Door.It did not Register Within my Head
what It Meant I just RIPPED it off the Door and Entered my House.
I poured myself a Drink (Vodka/Tonic) And just went along Blocking
it out with My Friend ALCOHOL.
I just could not Comprehend what
was happening,My friends took it
more seriously than myself and
DENISE ORTH AND LARRY FISCHER
(FROG) tried to prepare me for what would happen in the future.I pretended to pack up my things,went through the Motions NEVER REALLY GRASPING the eventual Eviction.LISA was so Nice asking if I needed boxes and I just thought
it was all some kind of Cruel JOKE!
SHE WAS SERIOUS but I WAS IN DENIAL! She Said I could Store my things in the Back Bedroom I again
went Through the Motions and tried to FIT THE WHOLE HOUSE of
Things into One Room.I Locked Up
my Valuables into a small Room
Downstairs which was a sealed up
original entrance from the Garage to the Basement.I called it the VAULT,TRIPLE LOCKED and I thought Pretty Darn Secure.Gold and Silver Coins And other Valuables.LATER RICK BEDER GAVE THE MOVING MONKEYS PERMISSION TO USE ANY FORCE NESSESSARY TO BREAK IN to the room And They DID!

SPOILED? ONLY SON.

Growing up as the only Son in a family was something I can look back now and realize I had it made.I had to find out things on my own by observing my surroundings.Friends helped me Grow more than I realized at the time and again Television was a means to try to Put the world in a bit of order.Much of my character was taken from Television shows,How to act in situations were somewhat picked up from Half Hour Sitcoms and T.V. shows.An occational Mini-Series.

Writing This Book Blog

I was asked Why I am writing the Book.For Whom and who will read it? Who is my Taget audience?There really is no Target
I write because I need to release
Pented up Frustration from the Lack of Concern I have Witnessed
throughout this Life Change.It seems to me that the stronger I get
as time passes the more I am Feeling sadness for the Human Race.I am aware NOW, I have wasted well over 33 years being Clouded and I Self Medicated myself to Numb my senses from the World.I could not Handle Reality or so I thought.Now I am trying to Understand the people around me.I am still asking alot of Questions,Mostly about the People Closest, It seems that my Sisters
are Drifting away.Katie has recently
shown me her Confused Direction.I Thought I understood Her but I allowed her fractured thinking because I also was Messed up.Now that my mind is Clear I am seeing more and more Imperfections in her thinking patterns.I cant say its because of her choice of religion BUT it may be a factor.She Crushed my Mothers Heart When she was converted But at the time it was exactly what she needed.Katie and Joe had it very hard BUT They had each other.Having another person
Soul Mate around is a Blessing for which I had None.